What does it mean to Have Grace on Yourself? Do you believe that there are measures of Grace?

This morning I was so emotional. Over everything. I woke up full of joy, and could feel God’s presence. But I was sensitive to everything, and I didn’t even realize it. My husband grabbed his scale to weigh his protein bowl and the battery was dead so he sighed in frustration and that got to me. (Yeah I know. I told you I was extra sensitive today.) In my quiet time with Jesus, my mind was going at a rate of 1,000 mph and I couldn’t focus and fully receive as I wanted to, this made me super discombobulated. So I moved onto cleaning and tried to take it easy but I just felt “off.” Which led to an irritating feeling in my heart and a pregnant woman sitting on the floor deep cleaning her cabinets. (No worries, cleaning was already on my list today.)

Immediately, I could feel myself pushing. Digging. “Okay, what happened? Where is this coming from? Why am I feeling like this?” I began to scroll through my morning searching for the peace that I lost and wondering what could it really be… and nothing. Typically, I find the cause of this chain reaction. I thought maybe it’s my hormones from baby, or maybe it’s because I lost my Dad..

So on my kitchen floor, surrounded by grocery bags and hand towels, I began to cry. I hated not knowing what was going on with me. I hated not being able to bounce back so quickly.

So I did what I knew I needed to do. R E S T in the Lord. (Of course, I finished cleaning and praying while cleaning.) I lit candles, flipped on the water in our tub, and squeezed a good amount of vanilla bath soap to make a bubble bath. Shortly after this, I felt the Lord say to me “there is Grace for today. And you can’t use yesterday’s.” Then it hit me. There is Grace for everyday. But each day differs in its measure. I realized in Him telling me this that I just really needed to let go all together and take it easy on myself. (Of course, that isn’t always easy.) On top of that, my husband, in his kindness, showed me that it was probably a combination of everything. Pregnancy, the loss of my Dad… He wasn’t concerned at all and also reminded me that “it’s okay.” I don’t have to expect anything of myself. I don’t have to push myself to feel something that I do not.

This is what Grace looks like for me. This is how much Grace I needed for this day. And the Grace that God has provided extends beyond every ocean. Beyond everything we face. We just need to lay back and rest in it. Wherever you are in life today, Lay on your back and float in Grace. Let go of all the expectations you’ve put on yourself and know that you are not alone. God isn’t afraid of your emotions. No matter what you walk through He’s gonna be right there with You.

With Grace and love,

Jess